Arachnophobia (Or I think it is)?

We live in an extremely rural area and have an extremely huge backgarden, and not so much in the winter as the summer, we will always find spiders and moths and such like around the house. I cannot say I am as scared of spiders as you--I cannot stand to be in the same room as them and will run and scream if I see even the smallest one, but I am never paralysed or such like. I do understand, though--in social situations I become paralysed and have a panic attack. I would suggest that you see a doctor as this is affecting your life. It doesn't seem so severe that you need medication, but you will probably be sent to CBT--Cognitive Behavioural Therapy--to deal with your fear, a type of therapy they use for people with phobias and OCD and such like, were they will help you confront your fear, or you may be sent to counselling so they can get behind your phobia and see why you have it and how you can get over it. Either way, a doctor can point you in the right direction. Meanwhile, always keep bug spray in your room for situations like what you are in now--I am deathly scared of daddy long legs and once actually put gloves, scarves over my mouth and neck, a coat, hat, sun gles and such like to cover every single part of me and tried to kill it with deoderant because that was all I had in my room and there was a moth in the hallway. Don't be so sad as to resort to that. Be prepared and get help. Best of luck!